I realize there's a lot going on right now. I have had several days worth of migraines, the doctor changed my birth control, and I haven't had very much down time lately. But I really shouldn't be this stressed out about work, and I don't know how to fix it.
Yesterday I broke down about "the problem." For real, in tears, in my boss's office. Even worse, she's been my boss for less than a month. I have had 4 bosses in the last 6 months.
She told me I was too close to it, taking on too much, too emotionally involved. She's right, but I don't know how to fix it. Work is way too important too me.
The worst part is that I am trying to convince them to expand my department and give me some staff, but my erratic behavior surely gives them the idea that I don't know what I'm doing.
Someone will find this and connect it to me, which will be ridiculously easy, and that's the end of my job.
I am tired of being upset about something so little in the scheme of things, but I feel like I am letting others down. I don't have a choice.
I need to go perform. Time to put on my happy face.
